Monday, January 26, 2009

It has been awhile

I almost forgot about ya'll...just kidding.
But is has been a long time and so much has happened.
Barack Obama is the president and Tim Johnson is still the senator from South Dakota.
I am back in Florida and working on moving to Jacksonville.
I am loving Jesus.
I am reconnecting and letting some people go.
I am loving life.

More to come later...I promise.

Friday, September 5, 2008

I don't have much time

However, this is post worthy. Go Tim Go!!!

Monday, July 21, 2008

Right as rain...

It's well past 2am, I'm listening to Adele(she is amazing), blogging on my trusty African-American Berry.
I'm inspired, I feel passionate, I feel at peace with myself. She sings "who wants to be right as rain, its better when some things are wrong..." Yet, with some things not as I would like them, I still feel right. It's interesting about rain. It always seems to come at the wrong time, inconviences people and their plans, but without it the order of growth would stop. The excess would not be washed away, growth stunted, empty lakes and rivers would not be filled, and cleansing would not be an option.
I still have uncertainies, my stomach churns a little, but I can't help but jump, because I feel right.
I love this trait about me, too passionate for my own good.
So at well past 2am, I can say I'm good. I'm in South Dakota, working, getting healed, feeling right as rain.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Time is ok. Lesson #2

Since quitting my job...I realize I have time. There are a couple of ways to look at time. It can either be a gift or a non-renewable resource. I have always considered time from the latter point of view. My type A personality views time as something you never got back (imagine me screaming:" NO TIME...THERE IS NO TIME!!: Yes those words have come out my mouth on several occassions). Thus I had to make the most of it. Do, do, do...go, go, go, achieve, achieve, achieve. So I did. And the gift of time became a constant antagonizer and reminder of what I have yet to achieve.

So why quit a job that was pushing me to the path of greater success and ultimately leave the industry in which I was acheiving so much? Because in the process I lost joy and was beginning to lose myself. Those two things are not worth the sacrifice.

So now I have time. Time to love, to garden, work out, work at Starbucks (if they'll have me), time to study for the LSAT, time to get back to me. This is a gift...I think.

I mean, I know this is exciting and new. Anything is possible. So it is a gift, but I can't help but be a little apprehensive about all this time. My antagonizer, my performance mentality, constantly taunts me with that time is running out and I'm losing. friends Truth and Reality kicks in and lets me know time is ok.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

So I just quit my job...Lesson #1

Yes, I just wrote it. I quit my job. It is a good thing...a very good thing.
Without going into to much detail, it was best for both parties. The thing is, I learned that I cannot sacrifice myself for a job or a person. Saying "Enough is enough" is ok.
Am I happy...hecks yeah (I totally ran through my house screaming "I'm free! I'm free"). Am I nervous...hecks yeah. Is this a new beginning(and I have no idea what I am going to do)...hell yeah and its good.

P.S.I heart Juno and Charles Steven is the cheese to my macaroni.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Oh Yeah, Facebook?

I am digressing from our regularly scheduled programming. But I got this from Clayton Bell. This what Facebook would look like in reality. HUH-LARIOUS!! It's giving me second thoughts....

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Don't call it a comeback

Yes, I've been gone for a minute and I shouldn't have left you without something to step to (LOL...I gotta love Timberland and Aaliyah).

I have been in Tallahasse for two months tomorrow (Praise that session ends tomorrow) and I have learned a lot during this time. It has been incredibly intense, hard, and rewarding. The interesting part about this is the time in Tallahassee was more intense than Reno. Maybe because I was in a familiar place but even with familiarity all around I could not rely on the external. Isolation, in its various forms, tests who you are, draws things out, and can also heal.

For that reason, the next few blogs are going to be about session and what I learned (good and bad). I hope you enjoy.